Writers Block

Writers Block

This is easily one of the most frustrating things I go through on a near daily bases. I'm not sure if its caused by actually not being able to come up with ideas of thinking of ideas but having so much doubt that they suck, you decide to trash them. Writers block to a writer is like a construction worker without tools. Sometimes it gets so frustrating you go on a writer rage and destroy everything you wrote, sometimes to the point where its not even salvageable. I believe your state of mind has a lot to do with this. If your not in a happy mood (which I rarely am) than you find it extremely hard to write fluently and about many topics, your limited to just your mind, your thoughts, your troubles. When your with people, you sort of get the "I don't give a fuck" attitude which is absolutely fantastic to write with. It gives you confidence, you get their opinions, and you keep a much more open mind then you otherwise would. Sadly, I'm not usually blessed with that gift. People ask me why I make depressing music...well music is basically a self reflection (at least thats how I view it). Like I said, their my thoughts, so if I put out a bunch of sad songs, I'm telling you whats been going through my head during that time, not just some made up story telling. With writers block, it seems like the stars have to align in order to get anything done. The beat has to be 100% perfect for you to like it, your lyrics have to be on point in order to even keep them and they will flow extremely smoothly. Stars aligning is not very common either, unfortunately. I have yet to find anything to help cure it aside from being around a bunch of friends to get your mind of shit. Some people get this confused with running out of ideas, but if you think about it... no one can actually "run out" of ideas. New ones are always coming and old ones are always going. Writers block is the decrease of new thoughts caused by lack of excitement or motivation. I have a lot of the same thoughts every day and that shows a lot in my music, I feel like they won't go away until I ran them dry so I continue to put those elements in my music. When music stops being fun, your music stops being fun. That seems to be the point where I'm at right now. Like I say, every problem comes with a solution

 - Revency

Favorite Movies

Favorite Movies

Someone asked me what my favorite movies were so I thought I might as well make a post about it. This is sort of hard for me since I'm a bit of a cinefile...but I'll give it a go. The first movie that comes to mind is Forgetting Sarah Marshal. I have watched this movie roughly...80 times? If I had to guess, I'm not exactly sure why I like it so much but thats probably my number one pick... Second would probably be the first half of Funny People. The second half gets really dark and isn't actually funny... but all the jokes and comedy in the first half is fucking hilarious. While on the topic of comedies, I feel like Zach and Miri Make a Porno is an honorable mention here. The title isn't exactly misleading but not exactly accurate either, watch it. You'll see what I mean. SuperBad is just a classic for me since Jonah Hill is probably my favorite actor next to Seth Rogan and Jason Segel. Im sure I am missing some movies in this genre as well, since there are so many...but another one of my favorites that aren't in the comedy genre would be American Gangster. Frank Lucas is so badass, I want to start selling drugs and killing people on the spot...sadly I know it won't happen. Law Abiding Citizen is a great movie too, some scenes remind me of stuff from the Saw Series, which happen to be some of my favorite horror movies along with Dead Silence, 13th Ghost, Insidious, and The Unborn (Not sure why its in there but the upside down possessed dead guy gets me every single time) Im sure I'm missing quite a few movies (Wrong Turn 2) in the horror genre but theres too many to think of off hand. Super Hero movies are next... This is also a tough one. The first one that comes to mind, even though Its not really a super hero movie is Kick-Ass. The first time I watched it, I wasn't really sure what to expect but it ended up being a fucking fantastic movie. I really like the original Spider-Man trilogy and the new movie ass well. The whole Dark Knight trilogy was great too, along with the X-Men trilogy and The 2 Iron man movies which are really high on my list as well. Im not that big of a fan of action movies but Shooter would be one of my favorites, that sniper rifle is just so robust...yummy. S.W.A.T. is another one of my favorites. One movie that I'm not exactly sure how to classify would be Scott Pilgram vs. The World because of how strangely fantastic it is. Thats all that I can really think of at the moment...wait...SHUTTER ISLAND! I'm not sure how I can forget such a mind fuck of a movie but I did...anyways, thats all I got for now. I hope I encouraged you to check out some of these movies if you never saw them! You won't be disappointed, I promise! - Big Papa

My Last 2 Days

My Last 2 Days

Though I'm quite sure no one really gives a shit or actually wants me to post anything, but I was really trying to get one done every day. The last 2 days, I had the keystone exams for school. I will start by saying fuck the math keystone, I failed the shit outa that bitch. The other ones I'm sure I did fine even though I didn't learn half of the material on them. Anyways, my daily schedule goes something like this - 1. Wake up 2. Complain about waking up 3. Drink tons of caffeine 4. Bitch about being tired 5. Watch 2 hours of youtube videos 6. Do school 7. Eat 8. Eat 9. Eat 10. Go to sleep. I've always been a night person so its extremely natural for me to go to sleep extremely late. Like 4 or 5 in the morning. This doesn't coincide well with getting up at 7 to go take exams that you can barely stay awake for. Each day after I got home from them, I went straight back to bed and woke up at 6 at night to rinse and repeat the process. I'm pretty worn down which isn't really uncommon but normally just not as bad. That has been the reason for my lack of posts. I won't be posting tomorrow either since I wont be home but maybe i'll just do 2 tonight, not like I have anything better to do besides sit on twitter and creep on instagram, thats right, follow me @BigPapaRevency    - Cuz I like it when you call me Big Papa.  If anyone has any topics they want my opinion on, feel free to pm me on twitter or fb or just leave it in the comments if your mobbin like that. - Revency

Money

Money

This can be a very controversial topic. Some people say they don't need it and others say they can't live without it. I have one question...how do you live without money? You don't and you can't, simple answers. What I really like is when someone says "love is all I need, money doesn't matter to me", and I honestly just can't help but laugh at their stupidity. Does love pay bills? Does love buy food? Does love  keep you warm when its 10 degrees outside? No, no, and no. Its a simple fact that without money we are fucked. You see that guy on the street over there? He thought love would pay his bills and look where he ended up. Well chances are thats not what happened but you get the point. He would probably sell his kidney and a lung just to sleep in someones bed for a night and have a decent meal with a bottle of vodka and sleeping pills so he doesn't have to live without his legs but hey, at least he had a good last meal. People will fuck you over and do outrageous things to get more bank then the next person because basically its all one big competition whether you think your competing or not. 

       Did you ever see that movie where money is replaced with time? I can't think of the name off hand but it was an amazing concept. When you hit 25, a clock starts and you get one year free, when your clock runs out, your dead. If a place gets overpopulated, the government would double the prices of everything and cause the people that couldn't afford it to die. It almost seems like thats whats being done with America now but I don't want to get political. Think if the world was actually like this, survival of the fittest, the strong win and the weak die. Its a cold cruel world and everyones in it for themselves. Its kind of sad to me that people really don't see the importance of this thin piece of paper that we call money. Some people want all of it, and some only want what they need...and I'll never understand those people. I'm not going to lie, I'm greedy when it comes to money. You have to be now days otherwise you get walked all over. If your good at something, never do it for free <---- thats some shit to live by right there. I think I should also bring up my refusal to work for minimum wage. Its not that its too low, but I feel like my hour is worth more then 7 fucking dollars. I could be doing a lot of other more enjoyable things than slave over some ********** who sits in his office all day because hes the grandson of the lady who owns the business. I can go into a lot more detail about money and I will in due time. Thats all for now, hope you enjoyed the repetitive ranting, Revency out.  

Christmas

              Christmas has a different meaning to everyone. To some it means getting to spend time with family you wouldn't normally see, celebrating some religious meaning that I can't think of, or getting tons of shit that you normally would not be able to get any other time of the year. That happens to be my case, though it wasn't always like that. Christmas eve was always more of a holiday to me than actual Christmas. I stay down my grandmothers house a few days before and we have a Christmas party on Christmas eve and open the gifts and such from them then I go home to my undecorated house and fuck with all the shit I got until I feel tired enough to fall asleep. I've done this since I was a kid and it honestly wouldn't feel like changing it at all, even if all the "magic" wore off.
               As a kid you look at things in a different way, you don't see the realities, you only see what people want you to. I'm not exactly sure where the excitement comes from as a kid knowing that a fat bum ass stranger comes into your house while your sleeping, eats your food, leaves gifts under the tree and then leaves. Its pretty fucking scary now that I think about. I actually have a very similar situation with one of my friends. We were supposed to go pick him up but I stopped at my house first and walked into my bedroom to get a jacket. To my surprise, my fat black friend that we were on our way to pick up was on his hands and knees hiding behind my couch making goat noises and scared the shit out of me as soon as I walked it. He never left me any presents but I still found it amusing. Anyways, people have really grown away from the morals of christmas. 
                It used to be about friends and family but now its more about how much money you can get everyone to shove out on you so you can have a bunch of things you will forget about by the time next year rolls around. I'm not saying everyone does this but I would say at least 80% of households are like this, me included. I still enjoy spending time with the small amount of family that shows up but its not really my main priority. If we get 2 weeks off school and bunch of expensive shit then I'm not exactly sure why I'm complaining. 22 days to go. Revency out.